Lost, Confused,

There are times I tell to myself that everything is going to be fine but in reality it's not. In the past couple of days I felt empty that something is missing or something that I'm confused about. I thought if I was surround by people that it might go away. It did but however it came back. I can't concentrate in school. I avoid my school work and watch TV and/or listen to music. I know that I want to finish school and be someone but there is something else that its missing. I don't know what to think?!?! I try to be happy and be confident in myself however there is something that its not letting me be myself. The only way that I see my real self is when I have to drink something. But there has to be something else other than drinking that makes me to express the real me.

People are right, the more someone tries to make something work it never works out. Trust me... I try and I try and never works out. I try making new friends but in reality what I end up getting is acquaintances. Maybe because I'm not open, I'm quiet and shy and doesn't want to open up to other people. And when I am open, I'm too open. I rely on someone too fast and tell them everything. I heard thats bad, I need to get to know that person before talking. Other thing I learn about me is that I talk too much and don't let the other person talk. I'm not a very good listener. What can I do?????