No Longer Knows How I truly Feel

I no longer know how I truly feel. I know I can't say no more because people have a way reading this blog and I don't want those to people to read this. My friends were wrong, they told me to talk but it didn't work it got worst. Now I can't stop thinking, and what am I suppose to do. The worst thing is that I lied which I don't do especially to people I care about. I feel so guilty for lying. I dont know why I lied, that person wanted to know what was going on so I made up a lie to cover what actually is happening. Damn it! I typically don't write what is going though my head but I just need to write. I look at pictures and I can't stand looking at them. I try not to think but memories are flashing back when I think. I just don't know what to do.